GOD'S "SENIOR MOMENT"

Me: Hi God...it's me. I was wondering if we could talk for awhile.
God: Of course, my son...I am always available to you. You really don't even need to ask. Just start talking to me, anytime, anywhere.

Me: O.k. Thanks! I wanted to talk to you about my sin. It is really bothering me.
God: What sin?

Me: That's funny God. You know: THE SIN! The one, or more accurately, the ones, that have seemingly ruined everything.
God: Sorry...I have no idea what you're talking about.

Me: And people say you don't have a sense of humor! Very funny. Come on: you know everything; and you are a holy, just God. Certainly you remember the sins I am speaking of. You know: they were the BIG ones!
God: My son, you are not listening to me. I don't remember your sins; and you only have a portion of my character listed. I am much greater and much broader than what your puny mind can imagine.

Me: Of course, you are right God. You always are. But, I'm still confused. All I can seem to think about is my sin. Others remember my sin. I know I should know this; but can you remind me, just one more time, why it is that you have forgotten the sins I am talking about?
God: I am very patient, my son; and so I am going to lead you through this...again.

God: Have you confessed your sin?
Me: Yes God, I have
God: Have you been broken in repentance, truly desiring to live differently?
Me: Yes God...certainly, you know this to be true.
God: Yes I do; but you don't seem to understand yet.
Me: Help me understand God. I desperately want to. I seem to be in constant mourning, grief and guilt about my sin.

God: STOP IT!
Me: What do you mean, stop it? I thought I was supposed to mourn over my sin.
God: Yes, mourning is a part of the repentance process; but once you are forgiven of your sin, it is time to stop mourning and begin rejoicing.
Me: rejoicing? for what?
God: You are so self-centered...rejoicing, because I have forgiven you. You should  be rejoicing because of the incredible God you call your Father!

Me: So, why am I still thinking about my sin every day?
God: Because you are not like me...not yet; and you refuse to believe my Word.
Me: whoa...hang on a minute there God. I do believe in your Word. I love your Word. Your Word is truth.
God: Liar.
Me: How God? How am I lying?

God: My son. If you truly believed my Word, then you would already know the answer to your dilemma. Let me give you some more help in understanding.
Me: I would greatly appreciate that God!
God: What does my Word say I will do if you confess your sins
Me: You will be faithful to your own character and forgive my sins

God: That's right. And what does My Word say about my remembering your confessed sins?
Me: It says that you will "remember my sins no more."
God: Yes. I don't remember your sins, because I have forgiven them. They are covered by my blood, and I cannot see them anymore. More directly: I will not hold your sins against you or make you pay for the sins I have already paid for. I don't remember your sins...only you do...only other sinful humans do. For me, it is done
Me: But it is so hard to leave my sin; especially when it's "those" sins

God: My son, that is your evaluation and human standard for rating sins...not mine. Don't put your human standards on me. Yes, I am a just and holy God. I am also a gracious, merciful and loving God. And when it comes to forgiving sins, I don't joke around with that. In fact, as you should know, if you don't forgive other's sins against you, then you cannot claim to be my follower, or my child. Don't expect to be forgiven if you don't forgive others. This is how important it is to me.
Me: Tell me more.
God: Really, the only time you should be talking about your past, forgiven, cleansed sins, is in order to talk about my forgiveness, my grace and mercy; and bring me glory. Stop focusing on yourself and focus on me. Your sin may seem like a heavy burden to you; but it was absolutely no problem for me. I died a brutal death, in order to conquer sin and death. So now, it is not hard for me to place your sins "as far as the east is from west." I have thrown them away. Stop trying to bring them back out of the garbage can, out of the sewer system.

Me: But, what if I still sin?
God: Of course you are still going to sin. I told you that in my Word. The key is what you do once my Spirit let's you know of your sin. Will you humble yourself and confess it....or not? And once you confess it and sincerely ask for forgiveness, trust me enough to live in that forgiveness. Don't keep living as though you are in bondage to the sins I already set you free from. Live in my grace, in my mercy; and tell others about it.
Me: It is so hard God
God: I know my son. But, don't forget that I love you; and as my Word says: I promise to complete in you (despite your weaknesses, your sins) what I have started. Don't forget - you are:

"God-designed, purpose-intended, significant, lavishly loved, prince, son, of the King of the Universe."
Now go live that way.
Me: Thanks God. I needed that!